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Is This Normal?

Journal Entry: Thu Jul 9, 2015, 10:10 PM
I realize it's been almost two months. Many things have happened. We are officially moved into our new home. Most of the boxes are unpacked, and things are settling down at my job. At least until I get transferred to a store closer to my home later in the fall, but I'll deal with that when the time comes.
Lately I've been running into a problem when it comes to doing artwork. I'm not sure if it is the after effects of harsh college training, or my own personal trauma, but whenever I try to draw something I get an overwhelming feeling of anxiety that makes me feel pretty sick. The longest I can go is an hour, which isn't good considering I am already a slow artist. With this not a lot of artwork has been done and each time I try to pick it up again the usual anxiety kicks back in. I've been to therapy before for anxiety, but this seems to be a whole new package to deal with. I'm not sure what to do. I keep trying to see if I can overcome it by forcing my way through it, but it seems to be backfiring. Now I'm starting to not want to draw at all just to get away from the feeling. It's pretty sad that something I really love is becoming a source of pain.
Have any of you guys experienced something like this? And if you have what do you do about it? I'm really hoping to overcome this obstacle so I can get back to doing what I love without this fear hanging over me all the time.
My battle plan for now is to try drawing a little everyday to hopefully get over this. Maybe with time things will get better? I really don't know what else to do. 


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Rilee Belnap
Artist | Professional | Other
United States
Hello! I'm Bella-ran! :D

I have studied Japanese for five years and lived in the country for some time, but I now currently live in the states. I have been learning how to draw manga and anime for seven years and hope to get started on my first manga, "Fairy Rings" very soon. While I have studied art in college, most of my manga and anime training has been self-taught. I prefer working traditional, but I do know my way around a computer and have done some work completely digital. However, I still love the feel of a pen in my hand and a fresh sheet of paper in front of me.

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Maw1227 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2015  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
happy birthday!!!! :party:
Bella-ran Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2015  Professional Artist
Daw! Thank you! :love:
Maw1227 Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2015  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Storywriter12 Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the llama. :D
I feel loved now. >u<
Bow-Stitches Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I have had one of your works saved to my bookmarks (as a picture on a tab:… ) and I just realized it was from devianart and now I'm watching you  >u<
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